Beauty of Memories

Standing still and looking ahead to see emptiness..turning right and then life to find nothing but emptiness...a jerk in the air by past pushes you down and pulls you to it..MEMORIES!!

They dont fade, they dont disappear...they are there always..pulling you..swirling you to the moments which you once enjoyed, felt, laughed and you were happy!! Looking at them looking at yourself there is a faint smile and a sinking feeling of missing, of knowing the limiting nature of their reappearance..Memories makes you happy makes you sad!! Memories are here to stay in your heart in your life in your mind..

Reason for us to move ahead at times, reason for us to halt at times, reasons for us to be hopeful at times!! Living in memories can be dangerous and helpful depending on you!!

Dont lock them, dont look at them daily, dont hide them, keep them safe in a corner for few moments of smile when needed...dont throw them away..Cherish..

Dont let it be a reason for a jerk to pull you away in Emptiness..let them be the reason for the next step ahead..

Pamper yourself for few moments of joy to create more memories ahead!!

Beauty of memories are they are limitless, keep on creating and storing!!

Dont live in memories..let the memories live with in you..

In Hindsight...

I look back at the day when i decided,..did i realize that after eight months i would still be looking back at the day when i decided..
That point in time it seemed the best thing to do but never i realized that after effects will prolong for so many days to come..so what exactly is a decision supposed to deliver!!
Lets look at it from this point of view..at certain point in time you are at a juncture where you no longer want to be and you jump out of it at the moment you see the first cushion available..so a decision is basically an escape from reality to find a new reality..only to find out that the jump did not land you in a soft cushion in your new life but again at a juncture where you are waiting for a decision to make..
For me right now in my life i am looking ahead for a new reality living in current phase with constant motions from the past reality..so i am chained from all possible angles and it is all in my mind..
i am living in three different kinds of life n the struggle to keep up with all three is tiresome..
coming back to the point that whether or not should i have had taken the initial decision but even today when i look back i very well know why i chose to find an escape so why do we always look back..the simple reason is that a part of you is still left there...

So a decision is essentially not complete if you dont jump to the new boat with all your gears..
in my case i am going to jump from both these boats together to a complete new boat and finding, creating a new reality!! Howsoever easy it seems, it aint bcoz the decision to be where i am currently is selfish because of people and comfort..

But one thing has happened in my favor..being in such a situation i have realised what i have to leave behind and what i have to carry forward..now i know what i want from my new reality and i will jump only when i can collect all my gears n move ahead without looking back till then enjoy this passing phase..this reality..with this struggle..because every struggle opens space for a new chapter to fit in!! :)