Either i have let go or i am just waiting!! something which is supposed to happen to everyone as they say but a necessary evil but how why and when is the Q? what if it is not meant to be? Wont the life be same or will the people change or will i? it cant be the simple reason saying "yeh toh hona hi hai". My perspective is "kyu Hona jaruri hai" what if i am nt supposed to get married at all! ( Yes i have been talking about marriage) What if god has not made me in a pair, what if that someone doesnt no longer exist and hence i will live this life alone with him in my mind. Even when i am saying all this there is a vague image in my head and mind, the image which has not been able to leave me since ages. But will i keep on waiting for that image to materialize or will i come to live with it.
The only reason i am writing is for the sheer fact that the CHOICE IS MINE whether i decide to wait in agony and pain or live with the image and let it happen if its destined to. I dont want to keep things for tomorrow saying after marriage, i dont want to screw my happiness saying i am 28 and single, i dont want to say that marriage is the next step and till then life is dull, i dont want to say i am lonely howsoever i feel.
Yes its my choice, and i decide to make my life beautiful and live it to the fullest such that when or if it happens, it can just be a part of my beautiful journey. My life is not dependent to such Necessary evil rather if my life is beautiful and full then marriage will be all the more beautiful.I do desire to and wish to find the other hook of my life but its not where my life is edged on rather the hook will get attached to my journey than uprooting it. The choice has been made.
Like i just read it somewhere "i exist because i imagine i do" and for me "i am happy because i chose to".
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